Today I had a 5 hour break with nobody else around. Normally that would bite, but in the case of good 'ol homework it was fantastik! I was all excited and got all nice in cozy in my chair at my desk and even had a nice little piece of choco-late to start me into my deep study.... then I hit a brick wall. I tried and tried to get into God's word and answer my homework questions but I couldn't do it... Finally I wrestled with God. I spent some time just asking him... or I guess fist fighting Him as to why I couldn't focus... I felt like something was weighing on my heart or perhaps I did something wrong. I was frustrated and then... I started crying. I didn't realize I had a lot built up in me and I just started crying and at that moment I just felt God saying, "let it out". That was it... God just knew what was deep in my heart, he knew I needed a nice crying session he didn't give me any cool verse, he didn't give me any big word, but he simply just embraced me and let me cry. It was nice.
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