This weekend was great, the weather was beautiful. On Thursday I went for a two hour bike ride, Friday I went for almost a two hour walk with my roommate Jess, and on Saturday we went for a walk and ate Chinese and then sat on our porch the WHOLE entire day. It was so relaxing. Oh, and I can't forget that we practiced our pitching skills with M&Ms... We could see our Mentor's window open from our porch so we played target practice all day, but our Mentor never noticed.. (or maybe she was ignoring us) either way it was fun.
Saturday night at about 12:30 I decided I really needed to get out and go for a walk, so I did. I spent some time with JC, some well needed time. I had been avoiding Him for the past three days, well I don't know if I would call it avoiding, but I definitely needed time to think about tough decisions He was asking me to make. I wanted to know without a doubt where I stand on those issues. Sometimes its so easy to run to God and say, "Yes, all for you, no matter what." and then a week later I find myself contemplating the same questions... So I spent some time to think about those questions and really looked deep into myself to see if I was ready to commit, so weeks later I could still say, "Yes, all for you, no matter what!"
One thing that I realized when I was spending time with Him, besides curfew was in about 10 minutes, was how He speaks to me. He loves me that much that he speaks and wants to wreck my life for Him. I love that about Him, I love that he won't let me continue doing the same things I've always done, I love that He loves me enough to cut me off and redirect me. It's still hard to accept His love, but more and more I am grasping it.
Because of Him, Raychil.
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