"It's Much Safer"

So lately God has been speaking to me a lot on what I am going to be doing next year. I know I will be staying at BCOM for another whole year, but I wasn't sure what that was going to look like until now.

A couple of weeks ago God spoke that I would be working with a particular lady here on campus. I thought it would be great for next year... I thought maybe I could ask her to disciple me once a week or if that was too much... possibly once a month. Quickly, God challenged me to let Him develop what it would look like. I began to pray and fast and He told me that He didn't want me to just be discipled once a month, but He wanted me to ask for a Full-time internship underneath her and the ministry.

This really was an intense answer from Him. I realized that if I would have went a week earlier when I first knew that God was leading me this particular direction I would have went out of my own weakness and I would have been scared. My weakness would have resulted in not wanting to ask to much. God wanted me to wait. He wanted me to see His plan for this. He wanted me to finally go in weakness, but in weakness where His strength shines.

After knowing that I was going to ask for a full-time internship I waited a couple more days in prayer. I then felt like God was telling me to go in humility and weakness and not give any background story and to plainly ask for a full-time internship. He was asking me to let His word be enough and to let His strength come forth. It was intense. For those of you who know me KNOW that I almost always have to give background stories to how I have reached a particular conclusion etc . . .

After all of this I received an e-mail from a particular person asking me to seek God in what He wants the next year to look like, what He wants the ministry to look like etc . . . I only had thought up to the point of asking for the internship. At the moment I freaked and told God that it wasn't what I signed up for. I didn't sign up for a huge part in a ministry. I signed up to sit underneath someones wisdom next year and to hopefully soak in all that He wanted me to.

God quickly gave me peace and reminded me that the past two months I had been asking Him to hear His voice more. So in reality I did sign up for this. These questions can't be answered unless I diligently seek Him for the answers.

Some of you are wondering, "why the dairy queen video?" Well it was mainly because I absolutely found it hilarious! And the second reason is because the part where the guy says, "It's much safer."

Sometimes, "it's much safer" to stick with the things that are easiest. Sometimes "it's much safer" to only go so far with God's plan for your life and then say, "I didn't sign up for this part." This is going to be a tough road.. an amazing one. I am sure there will be many tongues stuck in mixers and many times I will want to go the "much safer" route, but I am excited to go down the road of growth. I am excited to see His will in all of this.

For His Glory,
Rachele